This is your life - are you who you wanna be?

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Ben sat in the corner of a jail cell in the main police precinct, waiting for a booking. He was resting his head on the cold bench that served as a bed, the coldness bringing down the heat in his body.

Drug possession was the reason he was there. Along with resisting arrest and attacking a police officer. The last of which also accounted for the bruises and cut on his face, joining the ones that were already fading from Jeff's attack on him over a week ago.

He was coming off another high, shaking and needing more. It was two days ago that he had snuck away from Sam Winchester's apartment, taking his few things and just disappearing into the streets of Manhattan. All he had wanted was to find a way home. But at the Greyhound station, a woman with blonde hair and a gentle smile wrapped her arm around his shoulder and led him away.

The last 48 hours were a haze after that, until the cops invaded the warehouse he had been in. The blonde had been wrapped around his waist, white power coating both their bodies... and now he was here having a bad withdrawal and just wanting to go home.

His cell phone had been confiscated, and the police had gone through the contacts. They came across [Dean - Dad] first in the list before [Mom] and so that was the phone number that was dialed so someone could come speak for the man who was, in the opinion, not competent enough to speak for himself.

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Riley nodded. "You're not going right away. Dean's going to bail you out and take you home, and it'll probably be about a week. We need to take care of the court proceedings. Make sure everything's filed properly."

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Ben nodded, his arms pulling around himself a bit tighter as he tried to keep from shaking. He never felt this small before, and he knew in the back of his head that he had seriously fucked up this time.

It was just that last bit of pride he had that kept him from admitting it out loud.

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Dean watched Ben for a moment, before sighing heavily and running a hand over his face. "Speaking of bail, I should probably get on that. Which direction should I be heading in?"

"The detective will probably be able to point you in the right direction," Riley nodded, finishing collecting the rest of his things before extending a hand across the table to Ben. "It was nice meeting you, Ben."

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Ben looked at the hand a moment, then reached out hesitantly and shook it. "Same." The shake lasted a second, then Ben pulled his hand back and hid it under the table.

The detective was waiting, the forms waiting for Dean to fill out for his son's release. He had been pretty sure the kid would take a deal, which would be better for him in the long run anyway.

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Dean moved over to the detective and started filling out the forms, looking them over carefully as he did. Riley just gave Dean other pat on the back before starting to head out.

"Hey Riley," Dean paused, looking up from what he was doing. "Do you need a ride home?"

Riley paused for a minute, before glancing down at his watch and deciding whether or not he really wanted to get a cab. "If you don't mind?"

"Not at all," Dean sighed. "I owe you one anyway."

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Once Dean was done with the forms, one of the officers led Ben out from the cells. The detective stood up, handing Ben the bag with all his things in it. Ben opened the bag, checking through it all.

"Where's my gun?" he asked.

"Confiscated." The detective gave Ben a look. "It's not registered, so you don't get it back. And in New York city, it's illegale to own firearms. Might be different in Indiana, but that's the way this city works."

Ben kept his mouth shut, avoiding mumbling about how he didn't like this city, but instead just shoved his things back in his pockets and then tucked his hands into the pockets of the oversized hoodie he still wore that Dean had pulled out of the Impala last week.

Ben hadn't stuck around long to go shopping with Lisa, so everything he owned clothing-wise was either from Sam or Dean.

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Dean placed a hand on Ben's shoulder lightly, before starting to lead him out of the precinct, back toward the Impala. Riley was finishing up a conversation with the ADA, before turning and following them out.

"You still live over in the Village."

"Yup," Riley nodded, watching as Dean moved around to the driver's side of the car, and waiting for Ben to pick where he wanted to sit first.

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Ben just went to the passenger side and crawled into the backseat. He wasn't sure he wanted to be sitting next to his father at the moment, and the backseat would give him more space to just curl up in as well as not have to pay attention to the men up front.

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Riley slid into the passenger's side and settled in, starting to look through his briefcase. "How're Beth and Maddie?"

"They're good," Dean nodded as he got ready to start the car and pull it out into the streets of the city. "They're doing really well."

"Good," Riley nodded. "That's good."

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Ben's head tilted just a bit. He wasn't going to show that he was interested, but it was the first time that Dean had talked about his half sister since he had run into his father again.

And it was only natural he wanted to know something about Maddie.

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"She still taking those music lessons?"

Dean snorted slightly, before nodding. "You'd have to surgically remove the guitar from her hands. She loves it though, and it keeps her out of trouble, so who am I to complain." Or so he thought. If Dean knew about a certain older boy, then it would have been a totally different story.

"Tell her I've got tickets for that show she wanted to see -- I can't make it the night of, but if she and a friend wanted to go, have her give me a call at the office."

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"Show?" Ben asked, looking towards the front seat to see Riley.

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"Little Mermaid," Riley replied with a smirk, turning back to face Ben. "They were a gift from a client, but my nieces aren't going to be in the city that weekend, so I can't take them. I figured Maddie might put them to better use."

"She's been clamoring about it since she was a kid," Dean said with a sigh, hiding somewhat how pleased he was that Ben was taking an interest in his half-sister. At least it was a step in the right direction. "We just never had the time to really take her."

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Ben just wrinkled his nose. Girls. Now if had been a concert to a decent place, he might have been tempted to offer to even chaperon his half-sister in an attempt to "get to know her better".

Little Mermaid? There wasn't a chance in HELL he'd go to that.

"Yeah, well it's a play about a singing mermaid. Not really all that involving." And he was back to acting like he didn't care again.

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"I think it's the experience more than anything else," Riley sighed, tilting his head to the side slightly. "And they're relatively decent seats, so she'll probably have a pretty good time. It's more about interaction between audience and cast than the story itself." Then again, Riley was a theater person. As far as Ben was concerned, that explanation might just come off as being clear as mud.

"She'll probably take Anna with her, if she's still in town," Dean replied, coasting the Impala to a stop at the traffic light. "Maybe one of her other friends from school."

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"How can the audience interact with the cast? A play is just a big live action recreation of a movie. Not like they are pulling people on stage and crap. You want audience interaction? Take her to Rocky Horror."

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"Dude," Dean looked back over at his shoulder at his son, and Riley laughed. "She's sixteen. She doesn't need to see all of that." He still had nightmares about Rocky Horror. Dean didn't need to think about his little girl involved in that.

"I was thinking more of a -- metaphysical interaction. And you get different nuances on stage." Riley shrugged slightly, before looking out the window. "I studied theater in college. It was something to do with my time."

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"I saw Rocky when I was fourteen. It's not that bad." Ben rolled his eyes.

Then again, he really wasn't a poster child for well adjusted adult, so that's not saying much there.

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"Rocky isn't that bad," Riley seconded. "It could be far worse. She could be going out seeing Hair."

"Hair?" Dean frowned.

"Never mind," Riley smirked. "I should know better to assume things about your theatrical prowess." The Impala coasted up to the curb, and Riley got out, before turning back to Dean. "Give me a minute and I'll get you those tickets."

"No problem," Dean nodded, placing the car into park.

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Ben was quiet a moment in the back seat. Suddenly the Impala just got a whole lot smaller.

"At least you won't have to worry about me for 30 days now," Ben said softly from his spot in the back seat.

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Dean glanced back at Ben through the rear view mirror, watching him for a moment, before responding, turning his eyes back out the window again. "Gonna worry about you anyway."

It was kind of a complex. Anyone who knew that knew he didn't go long without worrying about someone, and this was no exception. "It's kind of my thing."

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"You should just let Jeff take me out. You got the kid you wanted. Don't need me here screwing it all up." He muttered softly to himself.

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Dean paused for a minute, watching him through the rear view mirror again, before turning around to face him from the driver's seat. "I always wanted you, Ben. That hasn't changed."

And that was the truth. The problems that came with Ben -- those he could probably live without, but Ben the person? He never hadn't wanted a son. He never hadn't wanted Ben when he was a kid. That week in Cicero where he was playing dad -- not intentionally, but it had happened -- was probably one of the best weeks out of that year, and he couldn't even begin to count the number of times he'd looked back on it, regretting that he couldn't stay.

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Ben snorted, but instead of tossing a smark remark back, he just lowered his head a bit more. There really wasn't any way he could not act like he was fine. Dean was seeing him at his lowest moment and facing time in rehab in substitute for jail.

"I'm not that 8 year old anymore, Dean. He's been dead a long time. What you see is what you get with me."

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"Never said I expected you to be," Dean replied slowly. He knew that people changed and he didn't expect Ben to be any different. "And I never said I had a problem with that either. Mind you -- I don't mean that I think you should keep doing stupid shit like this." Because eventually, the FBI was going to catch on to the fact that Dean wasn't dead if Dean kept having to bail Ben out of jail.

"But I never said I wasn't going to take you as you are. Family's family. You take 'em whether they're at their best or their worst."